The One Where I Get Wedding Anxiety Dreams…

July 7, 2011 by  
Filed under Boho Bride, our wedding

Some of you might recall the anxious feeling I noted down a couple months ago. Well, you might be pleased to hear that my eye-twitch has gone and I’ve been feeling a lot more on top of wedding plans….the general sense of panic has all but completely dissipated. Or has it…

On a day-to-day basis, I no longer feel overwhelmed. Boxes have been ticked and those that haven’t {or aren’t going to be} well I now accept, probably won’t be. You can’t have it all eh? There is however, one issue. My “day-to-day” anxieties have now been replaced with night terrors. I haven’t had a decent nights kip in about three weeks.

I am having very vivid dreams/nightmares about the wedding – but there’s one recurring dream that ensures I wake up feeling clammy and panicked…it’s the day of our wedding and I’m running up and down the creaky stairs of our cottage in my wedding dress but my wedding dress is the only thing I seem to have organised…

I’m always confused as to why I’m in said gown and then it dawns on me that it’s my wedding day, yet I’ve not actually organised any of the details. The venue is sorted…but no caterers, the guests have been invited, but I haven’t told them where to go, Adam {my fiance} knows to show up, but it’s like I know he’s waiting for me to give him orders i.e. what to wear etc…and this is the bit where I always panic most…I open my diary and scrawled across the page is the phone number for our registrar, I hurriedly dial it to ask if she’s free to marry us and just as she says ‘hello’ I always wake up!

And this isn’t the only dream – I have other, random, but very vivid ones, that make me feel physically sick…they’re mainly my OH telling me that he just wants to be friends :( though I also had one a couple nights ago where I was pulling my teeth out…but I knew I was asleep and doing it, so I was also desperately trying to wake up to stop myself!!! Weird huh?

Married ladies, Brides-to-be…anyone….PLEASE tell me this is quite normal? Does it all settle down – or will I be sleep depraved until the big day? How do I stop these feelings from manifesting in my sleep? So many questions!!!

…Though I do now wonder if reading this post  back to myself {I’m rambling right?} might actually induce sleep! *yawn* A very indulgent blog today!

With Love, Boho Bride xx

Our Wedding Countdown – Three Months Today!

June 17, 2011 by  
Filed under Boho Bride, our wedding

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Another month, another countdown post. I’m afraid readers of this blog might find it hard to escape my own wedding plans as I draw ever closer to W-day…

I’ve received some amazing emails and comments from other planning Brides of late and it’s been such a relief to connect with those sharing the same highs and lows of planning their nuptials – thank you so much!

Today feels weirdly cathartic for me as yesterday marked the end of a very busy time, both at work and play…but I find that as my mind clears from a heavy work-load and turns towards the wedding – the silly anxieties start to take hold as I begin to acknowledge the pressure of ensuring I look on my game…on the big day!

Three months isn’t much time at all and there are many things I’d like to improve on, so I decided to put myself ‘out-there’ and share. But, with bad comes good and I’m not about to publicly berate myself, merely share and hopefully strike a chord with others feeling the same way…you are not alone!!!

The bad bits…

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